I am a woman.
I love deeply and feel a lot. Sometimes I feel several emotions that seem to be at odds, all at the same time. Sometimes they come in waves, one clearing the path for the next to roll in. I am learning to feel love, for others and for myself, when I am feeling hurt or angry. I am even learning to love the hurt and anger.
I keep learning how to hurt and love, and love hurt, to heal the planet. Yes, I feel to heal the planet…because I want a world where people know that they are loved for being and that they can create anything they want. And to give that, I have to be that. I’m willing to walk through the fire to learn, even though sometimes it appears to be lonelier and more challenging than watching crappy television and staying at a job you hate, saving the enjoyment of life for the weekends. Yes, that life seems more simple, but I can’t go back. Instead, I’m willing to walk through this fire sometimes, to experience being alive all the time, so I can give the gift of life.
I am a woman. Don’t try to understand me too much, because as soon as you think you understand, I’ve already become new again. Instead, feel me. I am an ocean, and I know an ocean is a lot to feel, but when you swim in my waters you will see that life is rich here, and that feelings aren’t so scary after all.
– Nisha Moodley